walau...tt gail stupid one lor...gail is no longer the monitress ler...and she come here and 'steal' my job(as monitress)...todae mr lim didn't come to sch(he say got course)...then the co-form come to help take attendance(she very even take attendance lor...she ask jonathan lor)...sudenly
li fang call and look at gail then i was like...huh?...y is she countin?...she not the monitress wad...then i look at jonathan he face damn black lor he
look so not happy abt wad gail is doin lor...when she count to us li fang so call 'scold' her...below was the conversation:

li fang: wei gail...y u countin...u not monitress wad...

gail: wad i do??...is mdam sumaya ask mii count one!!!(shoutin)

li fang: she ask the monitress to count lor...not u...u r not the monitress...

gail: wad's wrong wif u??...fine lar...ask wendy go and count lar...(shoutin)

then she walk away sayin 'FUCKER'
wth...she like tt scold li fang lor...li fang was talkin to her nicely she shout at her lor...then in the end i count and give the the attedance book to the office...haiz ya...

then after we sch we went to ivy house to revision...but in the end we end up slackin most of the time (but gt study lar)...lol...

haiz...the mood of my went up and down....todae mr lim was very angry with the class...and tis time really think he gave up on us...he is such a great teacher...the type teacher who will protect us...the type of teacher who will care for us(not like some teacher who would only shout)...the type of teacher who nvr gave up on us...who will be there for us...even if we were noisy and all...but todae the class made him lost hope on us...y 1A2...y???...he treat us like princes and princesses(tt wad he said n i believe it)...y do the class have to mr lim lost hope on us...1A2 can u wake up a not???...the greatest teacher has gave up in us...y do ppl only realise tt they treasure sth/sb when they lose them...y can't we treasure it before we lose them...mr lim if u r readin my blog now tis is something i wan to tel u...mr lim...u r not wrong...u r not wrong at all...u did wadever u can to protect us...is we didn't treasure it...mr lim pls dun give up on us...we really dun wan to lose such a good teacher like u...on behalf of the class...we would to say sorry...sorry mr lim...pls dun lose hope on us...
then ltr on mr lim gave out the GADE 1 MUSIC THEORY TEST RESULT...i was like so scare i will fail lor...then mr lim said tt there is only 3 passes...i was shocked lor...i was thinkin how come only 3???...then he call the 3(in register no.) frist was rosema...i was like omg...how come li fang they all nvr pass(except aurea cause she gade 2 liao)...i was oso thinkin aiya i will not pass lar(but actually wantin to pass so badly)...then mr lim called my name...i was so surprise lor...nvr expect tt i would pass lor(damn happy lor!!!)...the last person was takuya...my father say tt tis type of thing waste time and waste money.....somemore he say i no talent in music(so he thinks tt i wouldn't pass)...but he's wrong really wrong lor...i pass ler...and when i show my father the proof(the cert)...then he look here look there and he gave mii bck...and didn't say anything...diao..werid de lor...not a single praise at all...so bad...but nvm...cause i no niid quit choir ler(as i said before i will quit choir if i fall the test...but i so dun wan to...cause i love choir too much...if u have read my last few post) and me myself happy is enough ler...no niid of any praise oso can de...

arh...today tt GAIL ar damn idiot lor...act cute in front of mr lim...and when she talk to mr lim the voice also act cute...stupid lar...in front of teacher only no how to act cute...in front of us(as in the class n her other friends) only no how to shout...cannot say nicely meh...behaving like guy...omg pls...u're a girl u no tt...act so manly in front of us...dun talk abt her she makes mii sick...todae mr lim praise the monitor(tt's jonathan) and the monitress(ur truly) tt we did a great job as monitor and monitress...yeah!!*clasps*...but i think tt still i can improve myself somemore...i will denfinitely do moii best(of course in eveything i do too)...todae oso found tt the table there still gt ppl write abt mii...anyway as i said and i will it again I DUN CARE!! WRITE ALL U WAN...I DUN CARE!!!

T_T i dun care ler...i reali dun care ler...write all u wan....i dun give a damn care anymore...write all the vulgarity u wan abt mii on the sch's table(and tis is not the first time)...but i wan to make something straight and clear to to whomever is writin all those vulgaritys on the table...I didn't write 'gail sux' on the table....IS NOT MII...and wad did i do wrong to make u all write those words on the table...i dun gt it u no...i reali dun...i had nvr offended anyone...i didn't do anything wrong...y do u ppl think is i who write it...maybe is because tt i hate gail...but tt doesn't mean tt i would be tt stupid to write it...i dun care ler...write all u wan...but inside mii...i no tt i didn't do it is enough...TT_TT

no one konws tt i'm shedin tears inside...no one konws tt inside my heart is dripping blood...pools of blood...is startin to flood inside...no one can reali tell tt i upset...tt i niid someone to lean on(please is not bgr)...tt i niid a hug sometime...i reali dunno wad to do sometimes...i'm sick of it...reali i'm...bearin all the pain...not lettin them out is so paintaking...having to bottle everything up is very tiring...i reali dun wan to be tortured like tis...TTT_TTT

thank god finally the world animal dae thingy has come to an end...for the mc thingy i did fine...and i played the role as a leader of my team well...but the one thing is tt the walkie talkie tt i have to take was not workin properly(so i have to shout)...so it was quite ok lor as very thing turn out to be fine...but after the whole thing was over my thoart was hurtin badly...reali bad...then i quickly drink a lot of water(cause ltr gt choir) as the teacher was talk abt wad core value thingy(no use one so i nvr listen...) but no use no matter how much i drink...i thoart still very pain...then when teacher let us off...li fang and i went to wash our hand...then we went up to choir...when we enter the music room...i was shock to see tt mr foong was testin every single one(gt to sing alone) to find out there u r not reali gt in...and help u improve on it...i was like so dead how i am goin to sing...so more my thoart was was like very pain lor...not long it was my turn...i told myself i can do it...pain will go away as i sing(but is not possible for the pain to go away as u sing) mr foong played a tune and ask mii to sing it out...i tried singin...but my voice juz wouldn't come out...then mr foong say i nvr try to sing before i start sing...i tried...i reali tried...after my turn was over i told fionna i will be i the toilet...and i quickly went out and ran toward the toilet wif tears streamin down my cheek...i stayed in the toilet a whlie cryin...not long jocelyn, jonathan, lynette an fionna came lookin for mii(if i not wrong is them who went lookin 4 mii) then they found mii in the toilet cryin...i'm such a failure...TT_TT...such little things oso cannot do...i wan to say thank u to the 4 of them as they went all the way lookin for mii...specially jocelyn aand jonathan(they did something which i'm not goin to say)...i feel so hopeless...TT_TT

i'm tired...i'm really tired...i dunno if i can hang on any longer...i tried so hard to make myself more visible...but still no one sees mii...i really tried everything tt i can...maybe is tt i always look so strong and happy in front of everyone...till they dun even discover the true self tt is hidden inside mii...tt they nvr see tt inside my heart is dripping blood...tt pain tt inside mii there is no other words can truely discribe it...even up to tis very moment...no one has seen it..no one...TT_TT ...

tis is the first time i am celebratin world animal dae...very excited lor...mr lim is in charge in.....and each classes(sec 1's)will be putin up a booth in the hall and for 1a2...is special we not like the other classes sellin things we gt to form teams to organzise the sec 1...cool isit...me lim has to choose a leader for tis whole thing...at first he chose mii but he chose mii to be monitress...so give the position to li fang...he also pick out a few ppl to be in the commitee...they r...aurea, javier, jasper, eugene(dunno the spellin correct a not), akim and moii....each of us will gt a team...and be in charge... my team will be lookin after dogs(i love dogs) from the animal therapy...oh ya...there will also be a fashion show...u all cannot miss it...aurea and i...r the mc...for the fashion show(the main mc is li fang and other boy(dunno how to spell the name)...everyone is well come to the carnval...so be sure to come down and have fun!! see u there...^^

yeah!! mr lim strip off the monitress position(is gail if u dunno)...the irresponsible gail is no longer the monitress liao...so happy lor...nvr do ur job one think u can still stay as the monitress for the whole year...think again lar...but now the problem comes...who ill be the new monitress?? guess wad...i am...stupid lor...there is so many ppl in the class...he can pick anyone wad...but why...why mii??...why in the world mr lim choose mii...i dun wan be monitress...

the class has been thinkin if gail is feat to be a monitress......cause u see in the beginin of the year......the work tt the monitress and monitor is surpose to do...is all done by matthew(monitor) and gail did NTH...it was so irresponsible of her lor......the wost thing is tt she takes all the credit...as if she has been doin all the work...plz lar...i really petty matthew lor...tt gail is so bad lor.......then today...we were surpose to collect the worksheet frm the office...and some of my friends asked him not to go let gail do something for once...then they call gail to go and take...u no wth she say... 'i dunno wan to go...i scare danapal catch my hair...'......walau where gt ppl like tt one...she can clip up her hair then go take the worksheet one rite...then in class the co-form teacher(form teacher didn't come to sch 2day)called the monitor and monitress and ask who surpose to collect the worksheet...tt gail say is matthew's job...form teacher nvr say tt it was matthew's job to collect thing from the office...she anyhow say lor...in the end is matthew who collected the worksheets...then ivy not happy...she say tomorrow tel form teacher say to change a more responsible monitress...

todae's post is goin to be a short one......i have a question to ask all of u.....wad does snow turn into?...i bet u will say is turn into water....but tt is the wrong answer....the correct answer is spring....dun get way is the answer spring.....cause no matter how cold it gets in winter...spring will always come bck for sure...amazing isn't it.....snow alway jus melt away...always...some of u would think it is kind of cheam.....but it is not tt cheam as u think it is...close ur eyes and think...u will understand wad it means...

tis are some of the photo i took...

~golden shower~

~colourful orchids~


~i 4got wad is tis called...=p~

~sunny sunflower^^~

~purple orchid~

todae my stupid sis lor...say wad wan go botanic garden....so my mum and dad say ok since we so long nvr go liao...then around afternoon we went there lor......there got lot didn't really change lar......still the same got so many flowers...hahax...walau we walk untill my legs r very tired lor......but still it is worth it goin there......so long nvr see tis pretty flowers leh....the air smells especially fresh...and the flowers smells so sweet...