Monday, January 29, 2007

1/29/2007 08:17:00 PM

i dunno wad's wrong wif me...
i can't control myself...my
emotions...is like so not me...
having to be in tis state for so
long and still have not recovered
from wad he had said...i feel so
stupid...juz because of tt one
word he said...really makes me
feel so like wad he said...

and todae i even found out tt
i'm a person wif no confidence
in myself...i knew wad i was
going to say...i knew wad
actions i was going to do...
but when it came to my turn
i couldn't make myself to do
it...i have to pause for awhile
to tell myself to do it...even
my friends helped...in the end
i screwed it all up...

should i face it?!?...was wad
he said really true?!?

Saturday, January 27, 2007

1/27/2007 07:57:00 PM

morning had tuition then
did my hw till afternoon...
revised till evening...now
blogging...

the whole dae i was try to
numb myself by doing things
trying not to think of wad
he had said...wad everyone
had told me in the past...so wad
if i can numb myself in dae...but
at night there is no diff lor...i juz
can't help think abt it...

Friday, January 26, 2007

1/26/2007 08:24:00 PM

todae...erm..ok lor
nth much lar...

first two period science
mr lim talk and talk
ask for files and all...
some ppl is really very
bad lor...make mr lim
ask and ask...haiz...

then d&t...finally mr koo
came bck...we have aready
missed at least 5 periods
of lessons wif him...haiz..

last 3 lessons is science
again...went to lab
then jasper got scold
(not going to telling y)
ya..then didn't some kind
of experiment then did
the lab book...

after sch...li fang wad go find
mr lim so went to stuff room
li fang went find mr lim i went
to find ms james to hand up
some of the paper ms james
asked aurea n me to collect
after went to mr lim's table
to join li fang and ivy...

mr lim nowadays keep telling
the class 'guys..dun let other ppl
influence u by saying u r stupid..
u r useless' and stuffs like tt...
i no he is hinting me...
but i pretend as if i dunno wad
he is trying to say...
haiz..dunno wad's wrong wif
me lar...a lot of my friend has been
telling me i not like the usually self...
dun smile anymore..i no is not like me
i no tt i'm always the one who
will be smile every morning
to sch and all...
but now i dun...doesn't mean
u all have to keep reminding
me i'm not myself...

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

1/24/2007 08:09:00 PM

todae after sch went to find mr lim..
help my friends to hand in the science
pratical book to him...
then after tt he talk to me...
he said tt tis few days i have been very
moody...then i was like dunno wad to reply
so i shut up...

if mr lim can tel it...means tt is very obvious
is my feeling over spilling for everyone to see?!?
wad can i do to stop it?!?

Monday, January 22, 2007

1/22/2007 09:53:00 PM

i'm sorry but then
i really REALLY had enough

y after the trip u changed
so much...y all of a sudden
u stop talking to me...questions like
tis has been whirling in my mind ever
since the carol ended...then now...is like
we r strangers..walked passed each
other we didn't say 'hi' or anything...
wad gotten into u...u r not like tt person
i use to no...if u insist on staying tis way..
then throw away those momerris i have
wif u...if u dun wan it...then i will also
throw away those memorries...there
is no point in keeping them when u dun
cherish it...

1/22/2007 09:45:00 PM

chinese class:
boring...

math class:
erm...ok lar

recess:
sucks...

history class:
noisy..noisy..noisy

math class:
whole class got scolding from normala
asked to stay after sch

lifelit class:
ms james didn't come for the first period

after sch:
whole class got to stay back
1.30 to 3.40(in my case cause i got choir pratice)
rush rush here rush rush there
then had choir play dae
fun..can say enjoyable ba

Saturday, January 20, 2007

1/20/2007 09:17:00 PM

If only for an instant
I could see your face
It would fill my empty spirit
With wondrous life and grace

As I watch, and you unknowing
I love you from afar
I can see your face is glowing
Underneath the brightest star

In a great majestic palace
Of 'forever' do I wait
And not once feeling callous
To the outcome of my fate

Forever will I want you
And forever you will you be
A memory of something true
That wasn't meant for me

I'll see you standing there
And want you standing here
But always loving from afar
And never very near

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

1/17/2007 08:07:00 PM

.receipt of our donation.before tearing.

.after tearing.

.new creation of mcfurry.
.close up.

todae so sian lor...most of my lesson de teacher didn't come...didn't do much lar...read book and all...then went to hougang mall wif ivy...btw the mcfurry consisted vanilla ice-cream, oreo, chili and tissue paper..

Friday, January 12, 2007

1/12/2007 07:44:00 PM

i have notice tt u have been behaving something like a ghost drifting around me for the pass 2 or 3 day...you no i'm talking abt u...is very obvious lor...i can sense u want to tel me something...but is ur character tt is stoping u from teling me...pls dun let ur character stop u from teling me...cause wadever u say matters a lot...cause it might be a part of my character u think is not gd and niid to improve...or sth else...so the next choir practice maybe u try to find a chance and talk to me or sth...juz dun leave it unsaid...ok?

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

1/09/2007 09:31:00 PM

dunno y tis few days feel so ' xin ku '...everytime come home bath liao...then lock myself in the room...dun wan eat dinner...sometimes i even all of a sudden scream my head off and my mother thought i was crazy screaming for no reason...at night is like mostly is cry to sleep de...feel so terrible lar....cassandra u might think the reason is ' u no who ' but is not...is my own problem got nth to do wif ' u no who '...arhhh...if this goes on i'm really going crazy soon...

Monday, January 08, 2007

1/08/2007 07:42:00 PM

todae got choir...before i went to choir is like i have around 2 hours lor cause choir stsrts at 3.30...since i have nth better to do...i might as well do my homework...i pulled out my maths and finished it before 3.30...ya..and during choir we 're-learn' the mamamia cause some of them still dunno how to sing the song...some haven learn how to sing...ya...and J(we will call this person J) dun have the score to the song...so he went asking around to see if anyone wan share score wif him(a few things happen to us and i not sure wad isit oso) when he came asking me...i gave him my atitude...as the same time i keep my cool...if u are reading tis...tis is one of the few things i wan to say...

I'M NOT UR TOOL...AND DEFINITELY NOT UR TOY TO PLAY WIF!! U COME LOOKING FOR ME WHEN U NIID ME...WHEN U DUN NIID ME U JUZ INGNORE AND PUT ME ASIDE...WAD DO U THINK IF U WERE ME...IT HURTS LOR...A FRIEND WHO TREAT U LIKE NOBODY...NO ONE LIKES THIS FEELING OK...U CROSS THE LINE...I HAD ENOUGH WIF U!!

i was having such a nice dae and yet stuffs happens...

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

1/03/2007 06:53:00 PM

read below..i find it very touching...

Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life

The girl runs away in shock and pain,and the boy ran after her and said...The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.The reason I don't want you is because I need you.The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.The reason I chose my life is because YOU ARE MY LIFE.

1/03/2007 05:34:00 PM

yeah!! todae first day of sch...lolz...so happy finally i can go bck to sch liao...when reach sch...couldn't find a single table at all...then i went to look for ivy(cause i saw her on the way to sch)...i told her no there table so we sat at the table where the ncc room is...then she took out the presents tt we promise to give each other(plus aurea and li fang)...she gave me her's and i gave her mine...ya...later on li fang and aurea came we exchanged our gifts but aurea forgot to bring her gifts for us...then we all open our gifts...ivy gave me a very nice box wif a mirror inside(thank you ivy!!)...li fang gave me a very nice bear paper holder(thank you li fang!!)...

flag raising then when to hall, after tt is form teacher's period...we greeted mr lim(for ur info mr lim is still our form teacher)...then we now got 45 student in our class...4 new student...then we got to intro ourselves mr lim started wif jonathan...haha...the way he intro himself is very funny lor...then i was me...i was like dunno wad to say lor...intro halfway bell rang...it was recess..

i dun wan say the canteen lar...it sucks...after recess we continued the form teacher's period...mr lim annouced tis year monitor and monitress...stupid lor still the same jonathan and me...wadever it is i still can't do anything...then gave out timetable...when i saw taking maths...i wan faint lor...maths is miss normala lor...grr...dun really like her...

after tt is d&t then chinese...chinese teacher was my co-form...ok lor...he not bad lor...

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

1/02/2007 07:55:00 PM

.iFuture.

.me and my sis.

*my artwork.nice?*

.my sis artwork.lolz.

*exhibition guide*

todae when to iFuture...

it was so cool down there(tt wad i think)...

but todae chin chin can't come wif us(so sad)...

it's really fun there...

Monday, January 01, 2007

1/01/2007 11:27:00 PM

todae when escape wif family and one cousin(chin chin)...since my sis and cousin didn't been to escape so my father promise them to go todae...i myself didn't wan to go...but the thing is tt chin chin beg me so hard and my sis keep draging out of bed to go escape...so had no choice but to go...when we reach there...we went on rides and all...but chin chin wasn't tall enough for some rides so she had to wait for us...(chin chin if u r reading tis...must proper meals everyday k? so u will go tall tall...next time we go again k?(: )...my sis was like siao lor one ride after another(can't stop her de)...then my sis suggested in going into the haunted house...i was like huh? can dun wan anot?...even though singapore's haunted house isit tt scary...but dunno y i didn't wan to go...chin chin said she didn't wan to go so my sis and dad went in...awhile later dunno wan got into her she was like pulling dad out...dad say tt she was scared...i was like dots lor...ya...and saw one of my friends there oso...tomorrow going iFuture tomorrow...yeah!...wanting to go there so badly lor...hahas...can't wait!!(: ...one last thing...wishing everyone out there

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!